The Masturbational

I think I'm gay because watching men jerk off on webcam gets me rock hard in a way that women can't. There's something about seeing another man's hard cock in his hand, watching him stroke it and hearing his moans, that makes my own dick ache with need. I find myself fantasizing about being there with them, about touching them, about them touching me. When I watch those videos, I don't just see a stranger; I see what I want. I want to feel the weight of another man's cock in my hand, to taste it, to be the one making him gasp. It's not just a passing thought anymore; it's a constant, gnawing desire that I can't ignore, and it makes me realize that I'm probably not as straight as I've always pretended to be.