The Masturbational

I have to come clean about something. I know you see the plastic tube and the pump sitting on the nightstand, and maybe you think I just use it for "growth" or to help with dysphoria, but honestly? I use it because it gets me off.

The other night, after you went to sleep, I got it out. I slipped the sleeve over myself and started squeezing the hand pump. It’s an intense feeling—this tight, pulling suction that forces blood to the surface. Seeing myself fill up that tube, watching my dick get thicker and harder, it’s the only time I really feel like I’m packing the kind of equipment I’m supposed to have. It changes the whole geometry of my body, and seeing that bulge makes me feel powerful.

I kept pumping until the pressure was so high it was almost aching. I was rock hard in that cylinder, and I couldn't stop staring at it. I ended up using the vibration attachment right there in the dark, edging myself with the suction still tight around me. The combination of the visual—actually seeing a decent-sized cock—and the physical intensity was overwhelming. I came harder than I have in months.

I cleaned it up and hid it before you woke up, but the truth is, that plastic pump gives me more satisfaction and makes me feel more like a man than almost anything else we do in bed.