I have this specific fantasy where I'm being 'trained' or 'programmed' to be more feminine, and the only way I can finish is if I'm repeating affirmations about being a 'good girl' out loud. The weirder part is that I have to be wearing something completely non-sexual, like one of my old, oversized hoodies from before I transitioned. The contrast between the masculine clothing and the hyper-feminine ritual is what really gets me there.